Many thanks to the talented (not to mention well-read) Emma Roberts for including me in her wonderful list for July’s Glamour, along with Joan Didion and so many other wonderful writers.
“Reality is just so interesting, why would you want to escape it.”
Jeannette Walls, author of the wonderful and inspiring Glass Castle, talks to The New York Times Book Review this Sunday about her love of memoirs and what she’s been reading and liking including Chanel Bonfire. I’m honored and grateful for the shout-out. Use the link to read the conversation and get information about her new book and first novel, “The Silver Star”.
The creepy 1968 trailer for Roman Polanski’s iconic horror movie “Rosemary’s Baby”, referenced in the opening pages of Chanel Bonfire. Parts of the film were shot in and around the Dakota in Manhattan, where we lived in ” … our rather large and wonderfully spooky apartment…”.
Clowning in a photo booth in London with my friend Lynn.
While our parents were partying it up 70s style, my friends and I at ASL were roaming the city of London going to concerts, stores, restaurants and, on one occasion, sneaking into the Osmond Brother’s hotel so one of us could meet Donny. Thanks for the photo, Lynn!
Readers often ask how it was possible for me to have children to have a happy home life after everything I’d been through as a child, teenager and young adult and having had a role model like Mother. I tell them that having children has been for me a second chance to have a happy childhood by giving my children one. And as for not having a mothering role model, I kind of made one up. When faced with a question or challenge with my kids, I’d often ask myself what Georgann would do and then… do the opposite. It’s worked out quite well. My son Harry graduated from high school this week and my daughter Grace is a delightful middle schooler.
Yesterday we were in London. Today we jump to Cambridge, MA.
The eponymous Joyce Chen restaurant in Cambridge where I was a hostess in the summer of 1977. Joyce was branded the “Chinese Julia Child” and brought a quality of service and authentic chinese cuisine to a country that had only seen chow mein or chop suey or egg drop soup. Many of Cambridge’s 70s luminaries including Julia Child, John Irving and Robert Parker came to the restaurant. One night I had to go into the ladies room and rescue a very drunk Ginger Rogers from the floor and escort her out. The waiters had trouble pronouncing my name, so I was rechristened Candy. Sadly, the restaurant is no longer there.
Sometimes, for the sake of narrative flow, style, character–any number of reasons–a writer has to cut passages in order to make a better book. As Faulkner said, “Kill your darlings.” In memoir your darlings are not simply scenes you made up, they are part of your life, part of you. This passage had to be cut from Chanel and I think it’s a better book for its absence but it doesn’t make it less meaningful for me. Thanks to the modern miracle of blogging (like the extras section of film dvds) I can share it with you.
Moccasins of Shame
The hospital was bright and clean inside and smelled like a swimming pool. Mother’s room was all bleached white and glowing with sunlight. Her blond hair was pulled back in a bun. Looking at her in the skinny hospital bed, I didn’t think she looked sick at all. She looked beautiful, like a fairy princess.
Mother laughed and smiled and was so happy to see us. Daddy stood against the wall with his arms crossed over his chest, as we climbed up onto the bed to hug her and kiss her. She told us that she got to eat her breakfast in bed and that most nights they showed movies in the dining room after dinner. She told us about a woman she’d met there who had been a famous Olympic diver, but had then dived into a swimming pool with no water in it and now she had problems thinking straight. I wondered aloud why someone would jump into an empty swimming pool in the first place, but Mother said it had been an accident.
Before we left, she gave us each a little pair of moccasins that she had made for us during recreation. I asked what that was, and she said it was a time when everyone at the hospital got to make something with their hands—baskets or pot holders, for example—and that she had decided to make something for us. The moccasins were brown suede and had little beads sewn onto the tops of them—they were so pretty. I told her I loved them. Then a nurse came in and said that visiting hours were over and we kissed Mother good-bye.
“I’ll be home soon,” she promised.
I rode home in the car smiling the whole way with my moccasins on my lap. I told my father that I planned to wear them to school the next day to show everyone. My father said nothing; he just looked out at the road over the steering wheel.
The next day, I pranced into my classroom wearing the moccasins to show everyone how clever my mother was and how much she loved me.
“Look! See?” I said to anyone who would listen.
“Gee,” said Carol Rulnick as I modeled them for her.
“My mom made me these pretty Pocahontas shoes!” I sang.
“Those are nice,” said Tommy Flatto.
“Is your mom an Indian?” asked Phillip Braxton. He was so dumb.
“Can I try them on?” asked Carol but I pretended I didn’t hear her. I was crazy in love with those shoes; there was no way I was going to let her.
I basked in the attention of my classmates and struck a few dramatic foot poses to show my moccasins off to their best advantage.
“Wendy Lawless, you come here this instant,” said my first grade teacher Miss Entus.
“Yes, ma’am,” I said skipping up to her. I figured she just wanted a better look at my beautiful shoes and maybe to ask me where I got them. But she didn’t. She took her glasses off and stuck her hands on her hips.
“Wendy, I am appalled that your parents would allow you to wear bedroom slippers to school.” She looked down at me sternly.
“But…” I said.
Until this moment I had loved Miss Entus with all my heart. She was thin and blonde like my mother and she gave us lollipops during the spelling test.
“I’m afraid that it’s against school rules,” she said folding her arms across her chest.
I wanted to tell her that they weren’t bedroom slippers and that my mom had made them for me, that she had sewn the little beads on herself.
“You go to the office right now and you tell them that you are to be sent home,” Miss Entus said.
“But…” I tried again.
She pointed to the door. I looked down at my feet, heartbroken. There was hush as I walked out of the classroom and down to the office to wait for my father.
Apparently no one had told Miss Entus that my moccasins had been hand-made by my crazy mom during her recreation period at the loony bin.
“For those who prefer a kooky story of a glamorous woman living like a grown-up Eloise in New York, to the detriment of her daughters, there’s Wendy Lawless’ fizzy Chanel Bonfire.” “Fizzy” — the definition of a great beach read!